lindsay

Sooo this week was definitely one of the longest weeks of my life. Between the hells of tech week, trying to figure out my thesis, a general feeling of exhaustion and the normal school routine, I can definitely say I'm glad its over.
Although, also, in a way, I'm not.
This play, Some Girl(s) by Neil Labute, has been one of the best shows I have ever been a part of, and one of my best in acting. And I was so nervous! I mean, I'm nervous anyway, but I really was nervous about this because everyone else in the show was absolutely amazing! Each person brought something special to their character, which made the whole stage light up! Both nights, the audience clapped at the end of every scene!
I got the biggest compliment, though, from one of my friends. She said, "It wasn't even you on stage! I mean... it was you, but not. Ya know?"
Yeah, I knew exactly what she meant. :-)

I have grown so much since sophomore year, the last time I was on stage. I used too much of myself back then. I was so insecure that it was the only way I could get in touch with a character, but it wasn't the best way, or the healthiest I'm sure. Now, I'm much more secure in who I am to know who I'm not. And this character definitely did not have much of me, but I was still able to become her - to see the world through her eyes, and respond and think as if I was her, not me.
But I still am me. I didn't lose anything in the process. In fact, I gained something. Alot of something. Alot of knowledge about the world, about relationships, about confidence. Just... alot.
If that makes any sense at all... then you've probably been awake for as many consecutive hours as I have!